23 April 2012

End of the Tunnel ( Pt 17 ) - I have lost one

Today, at three I was preparing for my afternoon class at Almanar. For want of time I had planned to do two classes concurrently, a kind of juggling from one class-room to another. Then my hand-phone rang.

“ Assalaamu Alaikum, Pakcik. Ini ayah Syaliza ( This is Syaliza’s father),” the voice began. Instantaneously I sensed what was coming. “Syaliza dah meninggal dunia ( Syaliza has passed away) …..” The rest was history.

The father himself chose to call knowing how close her daughter was to us. Syaliza Dhamira joined Almanar at the beginning of 2000, twelve years ago and was at Almanar for three years. A quiet and unassuming person Syaliza always wore a pleasant smile on her face and was in full control of herself. Quite appropriately she qualified to become a nurse at a university hospital.

As expected, three years ago she was happily married. Sadly, however, a year later Syaliza was diagnosed having a rare cancer. Just as well she worked for a university hospital which possesses cancer treatment facility. It could not cure her but that made it all easy for her. If only she had been given some more time she would have been sent for treatment outside the country. But that was not to be.

Over the last two years Syaliza never showed her illness. She was unbelievably composed when she first related to Pakcik of her illness. And three months ago she made sure that Makcik and Pakcik were invited to her brother’s wedding.

Her brother's wedding wedding

At the wedding of her brother, Aalim, intuitively I was more interested in recording her presence than the brother’s wedding. (Her brother, attending a better secondary school, was with Almanar too for a brief period.) I captured her presence without knowing that these pictures will be for us to look back at her with love and with prayers in our heart.

With her dear husband

Standing close to Makcik's right shoulder

Never in the eighteen years of Almanar’s history it ever crossed my mind that one day I would be sending one of its pupils to the grave, as I did this afternoon. May Allah shower her with mercy. Alfatihah.

Berkhidmat kerana Tuhan untuk kemanusiaan.


kaykuala said...

Dear Pak Cik,
Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun! My heart bleeds for the family.You and Mak Cik had extended your strength and concern the best you could. Al-Fatihah


Abam Kie said...

Innalillah. How many children did she have?

Ismail aka Pak Mail said...

Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun. Dari Allah kita datang, kepada Allah kita kembali.

Mudah2an Allah swt masukkan beliau ke dalam golongan yang diredhaiNYA.


naniasda said...

As Salam Pakcik,
Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun..it is a shock when someone who is so much younger passed away and all of us will be heading to that final destination sooner or later, my most heartfelt condolence Pakcik.

Wan Sharif said...

I knew it is hard for parents to send off their children to the grave.. I guess it is equally hard for two of you to do likewise to your students. Then again death does not recognise age..
May Allah bless Syaliza Dhamira's soul and her tutors as well :)

Al-Manar said...


I know you can make a poem of the situation - of longivity or frigility. All the best my frie4nd.

Al-Manar said...

Daddy Zuki,

Sadly none. But we have to believe in 'hikmat' in all HIS planning. What, for instance, if a baby inherits mother's equally fatal strain? We are not that wise after all, are we, Daddy Zuki?

Al-Manar said...


Begitu lah, Inna lillah ..Kita diatas 'super highway' yang sama. Asalkan kita sedar.

Al-Manar said...


There is only one direction for all of us. But we should maximise doing what we believe is good for us.

Al-Manar said...

Ayah Wang,

Amen to youur doa which I say including yyou and family. Cepat cepat lah project tu. Kita nak makan percuma!

Haslina said...

She is so young but who are we to question Him? Anyway she's in a better place now, with no more pains and sufferings. Al-Fatihah.

Al-Manar said...

But the pain on those she left behind will be felt forever. It teaches us to make the best of whatever and whoever we have now. Tomorrow may never come.Thank you for dropping by.

Temuk said...

Innalillahi waiinnailaihi rajiun. Semoga arwah diterima olehNya dan dimasukkan ke dalam golongan wanita-wanita solehah.

Pilu dan hibanya hati dengan kisah arwah. Dan kita tak mungkin tahu mengapa Allah langsungkan apa yang telah berlaku itu. Dia sahaja Yang Maha Mengetahui.

asamkeping said...

Inna lillaahi wainna ilaihi rojiuun!

MamaTim said...

a very sad post. AlFatihah buat arwah..

Al-Manar said...


Betul, tuan, kita tak akan tahu apa hikmat disebalek berlakunya satu satu yang zahirnya merugikan dan memberi tamparan hebat.

Kita bersalaman semoga berada dalan keadaan yang sejahtera.

Al-Manar said...


Begitulah hakikat kita didunia.

Sudah kah tamat suasana kegembiraan baru baru ini?

Al-Manar said...

Mama Tim,

You have just experienced how life cannot be happiness all the way. A a spell of sadness will make us appreciate happy moments.

ninotaziz said...


Al-Manar said...


Alfatihah. Thank you