15 August 2011

Pakcik reminisces ( Pt 20 ) – I have a dream

In August 1963 Martin Luther King.Jr. said in his famous speech, “ I have a dream.”

That was 48 years ago at about the same time Pakcik, too, had a dream. I wanted a partner in life to share my pains and joys
"When I was young,
I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart
what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows,
day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said
Que Sera, Sera,
What will be will be."


And in August of the following year He granted my wish.

-------------- What lies ahead ?

However, one wakes up from a dream into another – But now it was no longer MY dream but OUR dream.

--------- We had our first princess

We had our first child to call our own. Then the dream continued.

My three ‘princesses’ ( EJ on the Princess Vandan Plas stands for East Malaysia Jesselton- Before Kota Kinabalu).

Three years later came our second, a hero.

----------------- Now we had two

We had a pair. But the dream did not end. Greedy, we wanted more. And HE granted us.

------------ With a princess and two heroes

Then He made it known to us through a gynecologist that we should ask for no more or else ....

We grew as a happy family. The children were big enough to entertain dreams of their own, surely.

--------- Togetherness - one happy family

Humans we were, we began to dream of acquiring ‘datukship’. And for that He has granted us ten - six heroes and four princesses.

--------------------- This is number ten to give us 'Datukship".

Will there be more? We have stopped dreaming.

Sooner or later we have to come to terms with what HE says:

---------------- Surah Alkahf

"Wealth and children are the ornament of this life ….. "

We have had most of what we dreamt for. Today, 47 years down the road our dream is simply that He grants us more days so that we can acquire more children, no longer our own but those who need love and care, the unfortunate.

--------------------- Orphans and of poor parents

Let us give these children a fighting chance to have a dream.

Berkhidmat kerana Tuhan untuk kemanusiaan


Cat-from-Sydney said...

Dear Pakcik,
May Allah SWT grants you your wish. InshaAllah you'll be granted the health and means to do so too. purrrr *giggles*

sintaicharles said...

Nice to see you and your family in photos.

Amran said...

Happy Anniversary !

cikzaa said...

Dear PakCik,
May happiness is yours..ever after.
Selamat Berpuasa.

Unknown said...

happy anniversary pakchik and makchik.

ours was in july. our 27th. 20 years from now, may we be able to look back on our lives with love, devotion and thankfulness much like you have done.

may the the young people lucky enough to be put under your care, apart from english and uprightness, also learn about the true meaning of romance from you.

Al-Manar said...


Thank you for for the early visit on our important date. Are you half way through to where we are? But you have many lives and we have just one each.

Tak lama lagi selamat berhari rayalah.

Al-Manar said...


You sweev only the vwery old photoes, the YOUNG ones. You see I dare not show how we shape up for this significant date. So imagine us as we were first married - forever young!

Al-Manar said...


You are a reasson for one of our many joys and will always be so with your family which you have started, the way we started with you as one important member.

Al-Manar said...


Thank you. Balik KT ke raya ni?

Selamat berpuasa dan Hari Raya.

Anonymous said...

Dear Pakcik

What a wonderful entry of your life. I had dreams of being the first to go to uni in my clan and district of Pontian but was not granted, only the first woman to get O level!!!. For one from a single parent (my mother died when I was 3), and from an ulu Malayan kampong with serba kekurangan jadilah!!! But certain things I never dreamt of came my way, syukur Alhamdulillah.


Anonymous said...

Copy/Paste from f/b:

Nor Ghani commented on your note "Pakcik reminisces ( Pt 20 ) – I have a dream".
Nor wrote "A beautiful and romantic recollection of a happy familial and spiritual development, Akhi Pakcik Al-Manar. It appears to me that all the storms and buffeting of life were taken away by the sea near which you established your residence. Many of us have to face them without the advantage of a long stretch of golden and scenic seashore. "

Al-Manar said...


Do not think 20 years is a life time. It will come and go beore you know it. I started Almanar without thinking how it would turn out. Alhamdulillah, 17 years has passed meaningfully. So you see, dear Nali. Start you Handcrated Bracelets seriously. I am not an expert, not by a long chalk,but as I said before I will helpwhatever I can.

Your life is truly very very rich. Not many have been blessed as you have. Of course nothing comes easy. That is exactly why you have what many can never dream to.

Selamat berpuasa dan berhari Raya. Please drop by as often as time permits. I have not heard from our trvel agency friend for quite some time. Have you?

Al-Manar said...


Your life is truly very very interesting. I have just said so to Nali above. She has a lot to write about. And I know enough of the varied achievemnets and failures you have gone through. So, as I said to Nali, I m saying to you.Please open a blog to share your life experiences with others.

ninotaziz said...

Dear Pakcik,
How beautiful and lovely.

Please email your address, and some description of the road? We hope to swing by KT after Hari Raya, insyaallah.

Al-Manar said...

Akhi Nor Ghani,

You have a gifted talent in writing.You comments on currents affairs are interesting to read and I can dream of writing half of what you do. The sea, the open sky and the clear moonlit nights make one romantic and sentimental!

Selamat berpuasa.

Temuk said...

Dari gambar-gambar lama itu, tahulah kita kini, dulu-dulu tuan kacak. Sekarang? Insya-Allah, lagilah kacak serba-serbinya!

Malangnya, ada orang yang tak punyai peluang sekalipun untuk mimpikan sesuatu. Kecuali ada orang lain membantunya, spt yang tuan lakukan. May you continue to have more and more helpless children that you can nurture to make them functional members of society. Insya-Allah.

GUiKP said...

Salam Ramadan Pak
Alhamdulillah, dan semoga semua niat yang suci murni dimakbulkan. Ameen.

Al-Manar said...


Will email shortly

Al-Manar said...


Srngaja tak pamirkan gambar baru. Tuan boleh nagak sebabnya. Orang puteh kata 'living with the past' yang sehat, lagak - bukan muka berkerut, rambut dah habis dihakis udara masim tepi pantai dan sebagainya.

Semoga kita semua masih dapat berbakti.

Selamat berpuasa dan seterusnya berhari raya dengan anak buah tersayang.

Al-Manar said...


Sudah genap setahun blog tidah ditulis. Selalu saya jengok jengok kalau ada berita baru. I am sure many would want to know how things are with you.

Selamat berpuasa dan selamat hari raya Wan. Insya Allah jumpa lagi

Pakcik's No.1 said...

Dear Babah,

As far as I can remember, our house was always a temporary abode for relatives, friends or some strangers (who later become not-so-strangers) who were in need of some kind of help. Be it a place for them to start working life in the big city of KL, a boarding place while they attend some tertiary education or even as a sanctuary from their troubled lives. I can also remember my very first 'nanny' in Jesselton was a teenage boy all the way from rural Trengganu. The house became a home to so many. It is also of no surprise when the three of us started schooling, some of our friends became close to you n Mummy, and some to the extend of adopting the two of you as their surrogate parents!

So, it is of no surprise, after your retirement, Babah decided to set up Almanar. To me, Almanar was not set up 17 or so years ago. To me, Almanar was set up the day Babah met Mummy.

Happy Anniversary Mummy and Babah. We all love you both so very dearly.

Pakcik's no.1

yohteh said...

Abg. Hassan kawin, saya baru darjah satu... hehe... selamat berbuka dan bertarawih dan bersahur...

Anonymous said...

AK,Ihad just read yr blog after tarawih tonight and decided to respond.Happy 48th anniversary for both of you MAY ALLAH BLESS the whole family.Looking through ancient photos of yours, you and Salmah macam pinang dibelah dua ha ha ha.Hope to continue later.ZUL

nwar said...

Happy Anniversary to the perfect couple ! A continued source of hope and inspiration. Love you both.

Al-Manar said...


Itulah orang kata mmuda jjedik. But time flies and before you know you are there looking at the little ones back in the distance.
Selamat Har Raya. Lepas raya kita duduk minum kopil secawan sama sama ya?

Al-Manar said...


Little tells me your 50th , th BIG fifty is coming ten days' time. How we envy you, old man!

Al-Manar said...

Pakcik's No 1

It never occurred to babah and mami that our home had been deemed a kind of SANCTUARY by you, very perceptive of you. What Babah normally recalls has always been the incident of 13th May 1969 ( when you were just a little thing, tottering around the ground of our house with long hair hanging down covering your face) when babah drove the company's Landrover, bringing along a special police 'pass', to move a few friends from their houses in 'unsafe' areas to stay in our home. Obviously, you have noticed much more.

Perhaps that is one reason why our home has been generally and uncanily 'protected'.

You remember all these and we hope your brothers do so too. Hopefully the three of you have unconsciously adopted this trait as our legacy.

With love from
Mami and Babah

Al-Manar said...


Thank you. Hope Nuar and Meran read babah's comment for Kak Enon.

Love from
Babah and mami

abdulhalimshah said...

This latest entry of yours unfolds as a touching drama of life which carries a story from a dream to reality. It is a reflection of your inner feelings, thoughts and introspection. My heartiest congratulations on your anniversary and my Doa that you are Blessed with ALLAH's Bounty in this life and the Hereafter.

Unknown said...

dear pakchik,

thank you.

how true, time does fly by so fast. my husband and i had had to wait for quite a while for our kaklong to make her entrance into our lives. after whom, to borrow an old friend's words, the rest came like bullets! we feel truly blessed. and now has come the time for little grandkids to add more color to the kaleidoscope.

i have been into the handcrafted bracelets for a while now, pakchik. i just haven't been blogging about it... yet. when i do get around to blogging, i would like to write about other things. about 14 of them.....

thank you for your kind offer of assistance. i shall take you up on that. so consider yourself forewarned, dear pakchik.

i hear from our mutual friend daily. he is well. he has become more like a family friend to us. i shall tell him you asked about him.

you warm peoples' hearts so effortlessly. and i gather from your childrens' comments, your heart is bigger than a mountain. i wish i were more like you.

kaykuala said...

Dear Pak Cik,
Happy Anniversary! So touching and so fascinating. You've realised not just your dreams but more. You are still looking forward to the 'larger family' the increasing numbers in al-Manar. I'm sure it gave you tremendous satisfaction seeing the deprived when given half a chance made good.

And congratulations to Mak Cik too. Mal Cik's contributions may be 50% but I can tell you from experience it's immeasurable!
Syukur Alhamdulillah!

Selamat Berpuasa sekali lagi!


Al-Manar said...


I am sure each of us has his share of sad and painful moments. My posting does not show the bitter sides of life. On balance the negative elements are isignificant against the innumerable gifts from Him, the plusses. I would like to see it that way. You have expressed your painful moments but I am certain they are parts of your past and the future is always bright - the light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for your kind thought, akhi AHS. Again selamat berpuasa dan seterusnya Selamat Hari Raya dengan keluarga tersayang.

Al-Manar said...


Openness among such a your large family as yours must have given tremendous pleasure. I envy you but I am grateful for what I have, nonetheless.

Can I have the previlege of being he first to see your first posting? ( I used a different word which I changed to 'first' for fear of beeing misinterpreted!)

Wish you all the best.`Your heart can never go cold with so many loved ones around.

Al-Manar said...


Akhi Hank, I honestly did not expect this particular posting to be embarrassingly well received. I just assembled a few photos from old albums, making sure no one would see how we present ourselves today. Had I shown the more recent photos I am sure no one would look at us. So I have successfully deceived my readers!

Akhi, you raised a very, very valid point. I have truthfully confessed to my other half that I would NEVER have come this far in life, with all the pleasures and satsfaction, without her untiring support in many, many ways througout these 47 years. Is it just 50% ? Obviously, you know the answer.

Our good wishes to you nd family. And Selamat Hari Raya walau pun tak pernah bertentang mata.

Anonymous said...

Dear Pakcik

My own blog? Will think about it. My life had been full of happiness and sadness some too painful to put on paper not sure who would want to read it !!!

Anyway I am planning to do some travelling mainly to the middle east partly to improve my arabic. Was supposed to spend a few months in Syria early this year but had to abort due to the present situation. Inshaallah will go to Hadramaut in Yemen at yearend when it is much cooler. I was there for a few days two years ago during summer, tak puas, and it was very very hot.

Salaams, Happy Anniversary to the Merpati Dua Sejoli and Selamat Hari Raya.


Rahmah said...

must be nostalgic ya packcik..may God grant you good health always :)

Hjh Nazli Abbas said...

Assalamualikum Pakcik & Partner,

Your life story just like a fairy tale . . "and the Prince and Princess live happily ever after . ."

Semoga Allah kurniakan keluarga Pakcik keberkatan dalam meneruskan perjuangan ini dan akhirnya mendapat Sijil Cemerlang di akhirat kelak. Aminn.

Thanks for your wishes posted in my other Blog. Selamat menjalani ibadat di bulan Ramadan Al-Mubarak, semoga segala amalan diterima.

Al-Manar said...


Just think about it. That's good enough for now. HYappy travelling.

Al-Manar said...

Cikgu Rahmah,

When you reach ceretain age many things carry nodstalgia. It is a world in our past to reminisce and from which to draw a lesson.

Al-Manar said...

Hjh Nazli Abbas,

Apa yang Hjh jayakan dengan amal kebajikan seperti bersama anak anak yatim dan memberi sumbangan kepada mereka saya rasa satu amalan yang amat berfaedah.Kanak kanak itu terasa disayangi dan diambil berat. Ini amat penting dalam pembangunan jiwa mereka - tidak tersisih.

Selamat berpuasa dan seterusnya berhari raya.

Aishah said...

Amin. Alhamdulillah. Tahniah dan semoga diberkati Allah sentiasa. I really like the picture of the car, it is a beautiful luxury car. And your 10th grandchild is so lovely and her smile reflects the love and good life she has been blessed with. Alhamdulillah, MasyaaAllah.

asamkeping said...

Happy Anniversary!!
Ya Allah..lanjutkan usia pakcik dan makcik dan berilah kesihatan rohani dan jasmani. Semoga selagi hayat dikandung badan : Berbakti kerana tuhan kerana kemanusiaan!!.. Amin.

Al-Manar said...


Thank you for your compliments. You must not forget Pakcik will only show and talk about the good sides of things. Dah banyak kali khatam Quran dalam bulam puasa? I wish I had you email.

Selamat berpuasa dan seterusnya ber hari raya dengan anak tersayang. You are lucky.

Al-Manar said...


Doa yang baik dibulan baik untuk sayadan keluarga. Begitulah juga doa saya untuk Samkeping dan keluarga

Anonymous said...

reading your blog pakcik, as if I'm doing Qiam..air mata sentiasa mengalir. Masyallah.

May Allah grant and reward you and makcik... al jannah.Amin.Amin.Amin.


Al-Manar said...


I am glad you have taken what Pakcik wrote from the positive side of it, not the glamour of my youth. I am sure Makcik and Pakcik know you. Anyway we hank you for your doa. We pray that you are performing well and will have a future blessed with success and happiness.Selamat Hari Raya. Singgahlah kerumah bila kesempatan.

changgeh said...

En Hassan'
A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person ‘-. and there you are, truly lovelier 48 times over. Happy Anniversary.

Cheqna said...

Assalamualaikum Pak Cik,

Happy 48th anniversary to you and makcik. May Allah SWT bless you and family with wonderful years ahead.

InsyaAllah will try to visit you during hari raya, hope you don't mind email me the address..thank you.

Al-Manar said...


Alias, what you said sounds like coming through experience! When are we going to sit having coffee?

Selamat Hari Raya.

Al-Manar said...


Thank you for the wishes. When you have a quiet moment to spare drop by our house. I think the man I call 'Din Foreman', living just half a km before our house, is one of your relatives.

Selamat Hari Raya, Cheqna


Wan Sharif said...

Semuga kasih sayang yang di pupuk selama ini kekal ke akhir hayat/ zaman..
May Ramadhan bring you and your love one Allah's blessing, pleasure, Magfirah, barakah and all other good things ;))

Al-Manar said...

Ayah Wang,

Sama samalah kita bershukur diatas pemberianNYA yang utama sekali, hayat yang bermenafaat. Selamat terus berpuasa tahun ini dengan doa ada lagi ditahun tahun hadapan.

kotastar said...

Wow! Taniah segala-galanya.
We all have dreams.If we sweat out invariably they come true. WE are surely testified by yr good self and the feedbacks that AlManar and yr dreams have become reality and a success story.Be thankful and proud about it my dear friend.Many of us can only mimpi.
Another wow - to see the van Dan Plas. It was my dream once too to acquire the smaller version of its Austin model when we were in Brunei. Yrs became a reality.It would be a fortune now. Masih tersimpankah mobil itu? Petikan " Harta dan anak-anak adalah Perhiasan Kehidupan Dunia tetapi Amalan yang kekal lagi soleh adalah lebih baik disis Tahun Mu ...." merupakan dari surah yg menghiasi our headboard in the room' Some semblance . SELAMAT menyambut Shawal. Maaf Zahir Batin'


Al-Manar said...


Sdr Zainal, banyak sangat puji bulan puasa ini tak elok. The headboard with that ayat is probably not one of the common ones chosen by many for the room. I wonder what made you chose that. I chose a totally different ayat and asked a calligrapher to have it written on a piece of timber.

Incidentally, I live to regret for having disposed of that car many, many years ago when I never thought what a vintage would mean. There was a story that resulted from the disposal of that car. I may make a pposting of that one of hese days.

Salaam and selamat Hari Raya to you and family.

Ismail aka Pak Mail said...

Salam Pakcik,

Perhaps our dream never ends. There is one dream that I supposed every true muslims wish to come to reality. The wish of seeing Allah swt with bless in the year after. Insya'Allah.

Al-Manar said...


Indeed, that is the ultimate, whether one likes it or not.